All the sound things…
Plastic bags rustling loudly. Do my headphones now become obsolete? Lorry, truck, cars. I walk away from the lorry, it’s still loud. Two vans at a standstill, removal vans. Reminds me of my impending move. Yeah, they’re not even mine. But they will be soon. My clothes are ruffling so much; I haven’t heard this ... All the sound things…
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Plastic bags rustling loudly. Do my headphones now become obsolete? Lorry, truck, cars. I walk away from the lorry, it’s still loud. Two vans at a standstill, removal vans. Reminds me of my impending move.
Yeah, they’re not even mine. But they will be soon.
My clothes are ruffling so much; I haven’t heard this in a very long time. Or even my own footsteps. The sound of cuffs mix with the rustling of the trees that have just begun to sprout in the early spring weather.
Just when I wipe my nose. Seriously, I haven’t heard my own footsteps in a long time. I cross the busy road, taking extra care to look as I always do. I press the buzzer and enter my front door. Trying not to slam it shut. And there’s everything now, the sound of the key entering a keyhole. I always thought I was being quiet, especially when coming home at night. And clearly, it’s not quiet at all. I hear a message pop up on my iPhone telling me that new devices can be added via Bluetooth.
Home now. Sound. An empty room still has sound. There’s no air conditioning or anything, but there is still sound here. Sounds of outside, the sound of my footsteps, the sound of… It’s the air inside. The wind outside. Builders outside, I can hear the occasional clink, clink of something hitting concrete. But do I have a nap now or later? I decide now, I’m exhausted.
I take out the new hearing aid. I’ve had one in my right ear for years, but now I have one in my left ear as of today, so that’s new. That’s why everything sounds so different, so much louder. I realise all the sounds I’ve been missing. I take them both out.
The sound / no sound is immensely different. From all that air outside, the wind, I guess. The slight noises. There’s a school over the road and I can hear them playing and whistles going off. I can hear that without my hearing aids, but that’s not happening now. It is just densely quieter. Much, much quieter. And this is where the isolation comes from, but sometimes I don’t mind the isolation. Only if I’m not missing out on anything though. I can get on with my work, and I can focus, apart from my other disabilities that don’t necessarily help me to focus. But for now, I’ve just been out to get my new hearing aid fitted, the hearing aid in my right ear, that’s always been my ‘good’ ear. So now I have 2 hearing aids. And having taken them out, the sound is vastly different. There’s a note on my shelf that I wrote in 2016. It says, ‘Everything is Awesome’. And it still is. I’m gonna remember that as I put drops in my ear later. Hearing aids in both ears now, so a bit of a new experience.
